In a way I wish you would post your story on the Paraphilia thread under Sexual where some pro-contact pedophiles say kids enjoy sex, and it's all society's fault they feel guilty about it later.
If we have this clip but K2S link is dead - request reuploading under this clip in the comment section.
Any girl groups dealing with psych stuff in the area you can join! Your body responded, your child-mind liked the attention and time he spent with you.